Ah, well.
Another New Year's Eve, which seems to naturally be a time for reflection. Time markers seem to bring that on, I think for all of us.
2010 was an interesting year. It has been a year of growth, of renewal, of watching the Lord begin the work of restoration in my life in a deeper way. Of learning to allow myself to think about dreaming *soft smile* Of walking with dear friends, and them walking with me, friends from all around the globe. Of reclaiming my herd, and acknowledging the skipping of my heart when they came to me, of watching them settle into rest and contentment in the field, and my heart pitterpattering more when they swarm me of their own volition, eager for scratches and attention, not just food (although, of course, that too. They are horses). Hearing the thump of galloping little hooves as they come running at dinner time. Realizing the extreme difference between their thumps, and those of the Shire/TB cross at the stable as he runs across the field LOL, and thanking God for both. Of beginning to believe I can decorate a house, or train a horse, or ride, or offer myself in any myriad of ways and it not be ....rejected. Of discovering deep and lasting friendships, of continuing others that were firmly already there. Of seeing my sons growing, learning, stumbling sometimes, yes, but we all do. Of seeing my oldest son enter HS, excelling in his classes, pursuing his ever growing passion for classical music and plans to be a conductor/musician. Of wondering where that will take him in life.
It has also been a year of hard lessons. There have been grave misunderstandings with dear friends that shook our foundations, and of walking thru those, learning together how to love better. Stumbling, falling, and picking each other up. Of standing with one another, and grieving together when death or loss or uncertainty shook hard our moorings. Of learning to support each other as our Lord leads us on, sometimes into hard and difficult or frightening places, at the end of which there will be glory, but for now, one can only see the current path!
And so I want to say "Thank you"...first, to Him Who knows me by name, in Who's palm my name is carved, even as He molds this clay. For teaching me trust is a worthwhile thing, but must be earned, and that not all are trustworthy, and that's ok. There are some who are, and who are huge in my life. For beginning to open my heart to hope and love and dreaming and action. For injuries that have made me slow down enough to get back in touch, and hopefully for teaching me not to let it get to that point LOL! For those He has so graciously placed in my life, to walk with me. You are the best of friends!
For Enyalien, 2011 holds much promise. My Lillie is bred to a NC stallion, a son of Glenn's General Patton. Melody is carrying Kernel's last foal. Fancy, Snippa, and possibly Sonata are carrying Jangles' foals. I have show halters, Double K clippers, and a variety of grooming tools in hand, awaiting...I was able to trade my old 2 horse trailer that I did not need anymore for a very nice show harness...now all I need is a cart ;-) In due time!
I am trying to decide who to show, who to breed, in 2011. I would have loved to have shown Jangles, but with the loss of his eye this summer past, that won't be happening. I have no doubts his foals will prove his worth as a breeding stallion. I have one daughter of his now, who could go out on the A circuit, a lovely elegant bright sorrel and white pinto. She will be 2 this year. And I have Revel, Kernel's only son, who will replace his sire as much as can be. He is smaller, but louder pinto, and maturing nicely. He, also, will be 2, and is R. I suppose my first step is finding out which registry holds shows in this area...and they have a lovely mutual half sister, thru his sire and her dam, who will be a yearling in '11, and with whom I am VERY pleased. She will be R. So maybe it will be Revel and Buttercup who go out...put R papers on Princess, and she could go too...
